>>7073Probably insecurity. I can kind of relate I am very insecure about posting my art on tumblr or twitter and be seen while simultaneously desiring to contribute to a fandom I love and shill my favorite ship.
For me it's not even about actual conflicts, I never had issues with antis or anything, it's just some anxiety knowing that the whole world can see your coomer or shipping art. It's somehow a very private thing to reveal, something not even my friends know much about and I don't talk about feelings IRL so posting that feels weird lol. From what I have heard certain Asian cultures seem to be way more introverted too compared to westerners and especially US Americans.
I was always baffled by their ability to overshare the most cringe private things online without a hint of shame or fear lol
I am also the guy that makes new accounts for certain fandoms because I am afraid to "reveal" too much on a single account and I also don't want to bother my followers with a second fandom they're most likely not into.
I nuked shit in the past for feeling insecure about my old art but I try to not do this anymore.