/ot/ - Off-Topic

I look at oneeshota sometimes cause the only hetero content I'm into is the type where the male is weak and helpless. Same thing with monster girl media.

>>8842
But do you like crybaby ukes then?

>>8843
It depends. Much like with tsundere ukes a writer can make it work but it can also just come off as annoying.

>>8842
>Same thing with monster girl media.
Every girl I've seen into monster girl quest says this kek.

I'm a filthy handsome man x pretty girl shipper.

I know this is unpopular for some people, but I like "some" feminization, specially older males being feminized and getting called MILFs

>>8842
>Monster girl
This makes me wish non-vampire monster boys were more popular especially the ones based on mythical animals. Imagine all the crazy design possibilities. But unfortunately every person I spoke with can't handle anything beyond kemonominis…

>>8845
Sorry nonna I don't know why you'd ship Archer with Rin when Cu is right there. Or Emiya if you're brave.

>>8850
I never got the ship with him and Cu honestly, I love fujo ships as much as the next lady but they genuinely have zero chemistry (is it just because they fight at the beginning and they’re red and blue?)
>Or Emiya if you're brave.
I don’t like Shirou.

Honestly Archer and Rin was the only ship that made sense to me, in UBW it definitely seemed like Rin fell in love with Archer instead of Shirou.

>>8849
I'm always trying to work on monster boy content, unfortunately I'm working at a snail's pace… sory nonna.

>>8851
Have you played Hollow Ataraxia? I didn't get the ship during the original FSN but HA made me a believer with it's pool party.

>>8853
No I've only played the original VN.

I truthfully have the hots for a much older fandom friend. It's bullshit that I'm not entertaining because we will undoubtedly never meet in person and she would never want me even if I did, but I love her.

She's so kind, and weird, and kinda similar to me.

I love it when she says sweet things to me or finds what I have to say interesting. I enjoy the attention, we will chat on and on.

Got so worked up thinking about her and her kind words, I masturbated to the thought of it.

I have something like a praise kink, perhaps? Not in the bdsm kind of way where you could replicate this feeling with roleplay, but when it's genuine, I feel all tingly inside
(- -);;;

>>8864
>Got so worked up thinking about her and her kind words, I masturbated to the thought of it.
My fandom experience is destroying my sleeping routine because I get so invested in talking with a long distance fandom friend that I stay up hours after the conversation has ended masturbating to what we discussed. I've called it a validation kink before.

>>8869
Oh my I'm glad to know I'm not the only one some how.

Luckily my sleep hasn't been ruined by the conversation or masturbation (well it is ruined, but not from that specifically), but we do go on for very long stretches of time. Ah it makes me so happy she's willing to invest so much time talking to me instead of ignoring me like some stupid kid or something. So flattering…

Cringe but mpreg content makes me feel better as someone who wants to be a mom one day. Good mpreg fics explore the ups and downs of pregnancy in a way I've never seen in popular media. It also makes me feel less ashamed or embarrassed about wanting to be a mother. I hate how moms are always made fun of or shat on, like being a mom is the lamest thing possible and your journey in life ends. I wish mpreg never become a meme.

>>8954
The family angle is nice, and I like stories with adoption. The biggest hurdle is just the anatomy and exact mechanics which are often hard to explain away without getting gross/silly. I can see the appeal though nonna, and there is a reason it's a commonplace trope even if it's memed.

>>8954
Oh god this is so real. I've given up on that as a potential path for me, but I love seeing it from an angle that isn't so steeped in how people normally think about women and what not. It's helped me to see it from a more neutral angle and let go of some of my fears about it. It's really amazing to me, the power of art. You really never know what will resonate with you.

I really wish buying merch was not so tied up in being a good fan, especially with in the asian majority fandoms I'm part of. Even if you have the money as an adult, as some point, you gotta be reasonable about your money. I love love love their music, I own a few albums, some merch, and was even part of the fanclub for a year, but I feel like such an odd one out not importing new shit constantly lmao. Maybe I'm just bitter from being stuck unemployed though…

>>9028
agreed, I only buy merch if it could be practical in some way and maybe indulge in an acrylic charm/button pin if I have the space to put it on my daily bag. the most ive splurged on decorative merch were some nendoroids of my forever OTP and some doujin + artbook. otherwise I hardly purchase merch for any series i like unless its something really special to me

>>9028
I guess a lot of this also is tied to the franchise itself
Like I get people being expected to buy merch in something like a joseimuke gacha like twisted wonderland but I wouldn’t really get it for a game like DMC for example.

>>9029
Yeah, I bought a nice bag for my fandom and that's really it. I want some dolls as well, but they're kinda pricey… So another time. But the way people are constantly importing DVD's, and books that aren't even in english, and dolls, and magazines, ah!!! Shipping from Japan is so pricey!!! How!!!! I'd get it if you lived there, but how can you justify it, even if it won't bankrupt you? I just did not grow up feeling so free with money lmao

>>9030
Yes, like I get gacha stuff because it's built to endlessly sell merch. But if your fandom is real heartfelt art, something properly made with a vision, why is not just loving the art at the center of it all enough… I feel like your emotional depth with it should come first…

>>9031
>I just did not grow up feeling so free with money lmao
I felt this so bad when I joined a discord server with younger users for the first time. They were proxying merch for a Korean? series and saying that they were getting grandma to use her card for them as a birthday treat, but it was like $20 per acrylic stand or something crazy.

>just loving the art at the center of it
This. If it's music, own the CDs or buy the downloads. Enjoy them personally. That's all it takes to be a fan. Anything else should be because you felt a purpose to it in your enjoyment, which sounds pretentious but what I mean is I have lil plush dolls and a wallscroll for something I'm into. I can look at the stupid face on the wallscroll and smile. I can take the plush in my bag and use it to censor strangers out of photos of things I've visited. Make a joke caption about what my fave thinks of it.

I am jealous of itabags full of stuff, some of them are really well done with decorations and print outs to fill the gaps. But I'm still in shock that so many kids are making them like they're expected fandom culture now. They're just using them to school? Why? Didn't it cost a fortune? Urk.

>>9032
>Why? Didn't it cost a fortune?
It really comes down to a lot of factors
How popular is the character? Do they have a lot of merch? Is their series still regularly releasing merch? How big is the insert of the bag itself? Etc etc

If it's something like a popular idol game character or popular shounen character then you could probably make an entire bag during surugaya's free shipping sales for like, 50 to 100 bucks (not including the bag itself obviously) so it really does range.

>>9035
I suppose I meant that rhetorically since I didn't expect an answer. The ones I was thinking of you can't get the merch without using Mercari because it's still popup store and mail order only, and the prices per item are usually around 1200-2800yen (some of the out of print items go for 8-12000yen, I'm relieved I've only seen them in haul posts and not itabags). More pressingly my advice is absolutely steer clear of Suruga-ya's eng store for that, especially if it's a popular character. They are charging 600yen minimum for items and a 900yen service fee now, whereas can badges for popular chara can be found on Mandarake's site for 100-200yen a go if you catch them dumped in the same store. Also from experience I really don't trust Suruga-ya for itabags, however tempting the availability is. JP brand itabags can cost a fortune and sell out fast on int. sellers, and the secondhand ones either cost far more than they did new or have visible defects. Suruga-ya does not tell you what the defects are or if they have them, so it's a complete gamble. I've had one turn up "used" but still sealed with tags and full of paper stuffing, and another turn up the wrong color with a handle hanging loose because the glue didn't set. The one with the fucked handle was more expensive because of the brand/range.

Anyway I grew up not allowed to buy shit online, and even when I moved out I had customs to worry about so I had to keep all my purchases under 2500yen or face handling fees out the ass. I am old man shaking fist at cloud with these kids freely collecting whatever the fuck plushies and rare stuff they want. Japan is so damn accessible to them now. They're all posting phone screenshots of neokyo accounts with tens of items waiting to ship. Neokyo charges fucking percentage rates on payments like it's 2009 again.

I am such an attention whore, such an attention whore! I really wish she would just give me attention, and I would like her to talk to me, I want to talk to her always, I wish we could always be friends, and I hope it doesn't die away like so many other friendships I've had!!! I can barely enjoy using my Twitter anymore because everything I post feels like a bid for attention from her specifically! I feel like I'm molding my online identity to someone I love! The books I read are because of her, the music I listen to, the movies I watch! I feel so mentally entangled with an internet stranger I don't even know the name of because she's the person I'm closest to and I miss my ex so dearly! Please for the love of god, bring some other man to my doorsteps so I can quit acting so desperate and needy and pained over and internet friend that will probably never get closer to me!!!

>>9052
It hurts it hurts it hurts. I feel like my body is crystalizing with pain!!! At the fear of the instability of our friendship! If they leave social media like so many of my other friends, will we still talk elsewhere, like those other friends, or will it end? It scared me so bad, and they're on the older side arggg. I wish there was some stability our friendship or in at least my mental state that would give me peace of mind! I feel so sick with anxiety over what should really be a fun time! I think because of some of their instability in the past in general? IDK, but it hurts hurts hurts, I wish my mental issues were not so taxing, this shit makes me feel physically sick !!

>>9052
Damn I wish someone liked me this way

I am a pervert and leer at men openly.

>>9065
I became this way with an anon I met on lolcow, I have to pretend i hate something I like dearly and change a few things to match her interests but it is worth it when she sends me very long detailed messages about her OCs it feels like I'm addicted. I love her passion and her creativity. I wish I could message her daily and spam her more, I know she browses here as well so I'm always looking out for posts that sound like her. I hope we stay friends forever, I'll be broken if she ever decides to block me but I'm preparing myself for it this time

>>9065
Eh, someone probably does. The very person I was loosing it over thinks no one loves them and that no one wants to share their interest, but the truth is just that if I'm too obvious it could ruin things and as for their interest, I try, I'm just not as smart as them lol. You never know who's grown a liking to you.

>>9117
>she sends me very long detailed messages about her OCs it feels like I'm addicted. I love her passion and her creativity.
LITERALLYY know exactly how you feel. What I love are our long Twitter back and fourths, they make me so happy…Their so insanely passionate, that's what I love most in people, passion. It just sucks that I can't always match it, but I wish she knew how much I cared! lol!

I wish we messaged like you say you do with your person. We normally only talk through tweets but I did have the courage to message them about something they told me to watch haha. But after that it stopped, I really don't know how to approached them sometimes, especially because they seem quite serious at times…

>I'll be broken if she ever decides to block me but I'm preparing myself for it this time
Same, I've been hurt plenty of times, I've tried to temper myself so if things do suddenly end, I'm not too heart broken. I was freaking out really bad for a while over the thought, but I've relaxed

>I hope we stay friends forever
Hoping for the longevity of your friendship!

Ever since I moved in with my brother and his wife, I feel I can't enjoy Incest ships anymore

>>9052
I like how you mentioned men at the end of this, like this wasn't the gayest thing someone could possibly write. Sounds like good old limerence to me nona. I felt the same way about my first girlfriend, all the while thinking it was a friendship thing. Be careful, or it won't be long before all thoughts of yaoi shipping get replaced with fantasies of her naked in your bed.

>>8562
Once I had a dream I fucked Kel (Omori) in the ass under a bed. Woke up confused and very turned on

>>8846
That's the good feminization. Twinks being called wives and getting pregnant and being called girls is so fucking boring and overdone. Also it's always trannies with those

I don't like Arcane. It's very childish, simplistic and badly written.

>>9376
I don't like it either. Its pretty and well animated, not going to deny that, but overhyped storywise for what it is. Not even getting into the fandom sperging.

>>9376
My one singular opinion is that no matter how pretty your CG is, that new choppy framerate style popularized by Spiderverse hurts my eyes. Genuinely don't understand how so many people tolerate it.

>>9373
There's something frustrating about waking up and trying to remember what it felt like being turned on in a way that no longer makes sense.

>>9376
when i watched the first season a while back i actually kind of enjoyed it but i dint even bother watching the second mainly because the fandom was incredibly annoying and they were overhyping this show way too much
definitly got carried by the animation

I didn't know for the longest time that how you spelled a ship it meant who was the seme and the uke, so a lot of times with my favourite ships I just used whatever name I first came across and liked the opposite dynamic.

I don't understand people who allow their tastes/interests/favorites to be negatively influenced by individuals or groups - be it because of their opinions, behavior, etc.. Sometimes, I even look down on such people, even though I think it's wrong to do so, and more and more I believe I'm the odd one out on this anyway.

>>9526
This happens to me all the time so I'll say how I feel when it comes to this. It's partly jealousy.
Nobody likes the characters I do or ships that I do, I try to talk by myself and try to make the things I like sound interesting but it's really not enough. But when other people with absolute dogshit takes and horrible tastes in ships manages to get a small circlejerk over that specific character, I start hating the character (both because the takes are shit and because the people into him are annoying) and can no longer see the ship/character the same way even if I actually used to like the character.
I wish I had a bunch of friends to be stupid with and maybe someone think the same way I look down on such circlejerky people, I wish I didn't fear simply saying what I like in something but I don't have the confidence in it. So I'm jealous of the people who can say the most ooc stupid bullshit and people somehow manage to buy into it

My vtuber kamioshi is graduating in two fucking weeks and i don't know what to do. I used to post about him on /vt/ but it's gone now and there's no other fans around to understand my pain. What the fuck man. Why him. Why so sudden. Why now. Why. Why. Why. I'm miss him so much his streams were there for me when i was depressed and had no job and now he'll be gone. Not forever because i'll still follow him outside corpo but it won't be these same. Fuck.

>>9531
Fulgur was a good guy. I'm sorry, nonna.

The way my mother handled my weight as I was growing up was probably toxic especially by today's standards but at the same time I feel like she was right cause I did get healthier after losing 10 kilos. It's an odd feeling.

>>9534
I somewhat relate. When I was little, my mother would point at fat people and whisper to me, "Look at that lady. Look how fat she is. Poor thing, so ugly and sick. If only she would stop eating sweets!"
Suffice to say I grew up immune to overeating. Maybe I would have developed some food-related trauma if she had tried to shame me for my meals, etc., but it was always other people. I'm in two minds on the whole thing.

>>9534
However bad you felt I can promise you it's better than having been fat for your teens/early adulthood. I think it protected me from some lessons girls have to learn the hard way, but I'm not sure it was worth all of the lingering self esteem problems.

>>9532
He was the only one for me…I already unsubscribed from the other nijis I was followimg because I know he was the only one keeping me interested in that corpo. I hope the rest of noctyx have a blast but it will all be so weird without him there. He debuted right after fucking luxiem! Three years! From being this anxious guy who didn't trust anyone and hated parasocial shit to being one of the pillars of niji…and being very very parasocial to chat sometimes. God I can't. I asked for a day off at work so I can cry and give him a farewell properly.

>>9535
Mine would do that sort of stuff too. I never got explicitly obese but I did get chubby when I was younger and aside from shaming me for it my mother would express her disgust like that whenever we'd see fat people on tv or on the streets.

Not an interesting confession, but I used to love going online and reading reviews of books, visual novels, anime, etc… I liked seeing people's opinions and interpretations of stories I myself experienced. Even if it was a story I loved and the review was negative, I enjoyed seeing someone else's perspective. However, something changed. Nowadays, reviews try so hard to be "objective" instead of criticizing things that bothered THE REVIEWER SPECIFICALLY. Rather than laughing at absurd plot points or hearing about how some mediocre long-forgotten series is actually the greatest story ever told, I'm stuck with bland critiques of art style, music, and story structure.

So, my solution to this dilemma is simple: I have a spreadsheet where I review every single BL I've ever read or watched. There are multiple categories I use to assess them (obviously some categories only apply to specific types of stories, like the 'are they in character/does it fit with canon lore' category only applies to fan works). All of my reviews are pretty lengthy, and everything from oneshot doujins of my OTP to OOC fanfics to actual BL media gets this treatment. Then, I leave the review for a year or two so I can come back in the future and read it for entertainment. Of course, this isn't a perfect solution because I still remember the stories I've read or watched, but I usually forget my specific criticisms and the jokes I made in my reviews, so it's better than nothing. I've never shown the reviews to anyone, and I never will because a lot of them are way too personal. Some people in my life know I do this, and while they're not judgmental about it, they say it's a little strange to have kept doing it for this long without using the reviews for anything.