No.10883
>>10880Being horny should never make you feel pathetic. Your favorite's dicks are wonderful and should be celebrated for how they make you feel.
>>10882Story of my life.
No.10884
Does anyone else have weird kinks that have existed since childhood? I have a few that I've been interested since I was a child, like always obsessing over certain things that I realized was arousing only post-puberty. I've read that sometimes it's just genuinely how our brains are wired from birth and something just happens to trigger a neurological response.
No.10885
>>10884Yes. My sexuality was very much influenced by extremely autistic shit or certain childhood experiences. Nothing outright traumatic but just enough to cross the wires in my head.
No.10886
>>10876Just thinking back to the past year or two we had (not accurate titles, I'm going by memory): aristocrat with an appraisal skill, OP skill patisserie chef, reinventing magic in a magicless world (and dating your sister), nobody recognizes the demon lord, actually the strongest with a wolf waifu maid, that one aristocrat with OP magic that I literally cannot remember any hook for, and a few series where they start as shota and time skip to teens. On the loli side, there's a few guy gets reborn as a female knight/mage that start with childhood, but they don't dwell on it too long because magic academy plotlines require teens in short skirts. I have a feeling most of the loli focus isekai are girls reborn as girls for the purity factor, like Mofumofu Isekai was there to be sweet and cute and genderbending antics were unnecessary to that. Shota isekai is more likely to treat 8-year-olds like responsible adults with ambitions and relationships, so the characters think more like a man while looking tiny and holdable.
No.10887
>>10884I used to get my neurons activated by fucking Tom and Jerry episodes as a kid and it wasn't until college I realized this was lifelong stuffing and weight gain fetish. According to my mom, grandpa liked artworks of chubby women, and I guess I can blame him for some of it.
No.10888
>>10884I dunno if it's something I've had since I was born but my sister showed me Happy Tree Friends when I was 5 as a joke to see if I would freak out and instead I told her I wanted to see more of that show. I think it definitely influenced me into becoming a gurofag.
No.10889
>>10888kek, reminds me when I had an obsession with the MLP AU comics "cupcakes" as a kid and I would write stories about cannibalistic pokemon ocs that ate other pokemons and turned them into pastries for my elementary story assignments. I'm also a gurofag now, sisters in blood ♥
No.10890
>>10885Samefag but I pissed myself a lot as a kid, in school and in public. I also had another weird anime girl friend in middle school and high school who sent me omorashi artwork of anime boys. I now have a very big male humiliation and piss fetish.
>>10889Did we all have the same childhood? MLP obsession, cupcakes, rainbow factory, pony.mov, happy tree friends, your favorite martian, smosh, etc?
No.10891
>>10890AYRT, thats my exact childhood word to word LMFAO
No.10892
>>10884Unfortunately yes… but it stems from abuse. Suffice to say, I have a fetish for smother, breathplay, and compression/crush.
No.10893
>>10889Ayrt and loooooool nona, gorey mlp stuff were one of my favourite things back then. Cupcakes and Rainbow Factory are classics but there were also stuff like Story of the Blanks, Ask Loona and the numerous crossovers with Amnesia.
I was honestly in the mlp fandom even after the show ended, so for over 10 years, and participated in it quite a lot, I got a lot of memories with those rainbow equines. I remember also being obsessed with Pokémon creepypastas like Lost Silver and Lavender Town. Tbh I loved creepypastas in general even if some did make me very scared as a kid, and now as an adult I can see how most of those stories are not the best written kek
No.10894
>>10884I never got aroused from it as a kid but I was weirdly fixated on death and gore growing up, watched too many horror movies before preschool probably kek. I don't like how it's appearantly a weirdly common trend in this thread so far I feel very called out.
>>10887Is this how I learn there was weight gain Tom & Jerry episodes?
No.10895
>>10884When I was in elementary school a classmate tried to full out strangle my friend with a jump rope in front of me. I had to go over the events with multiple different adults in detail, and I ended up fixating on the act and the expression my friend had when he was losing consciousness. I had a crush on him at the time, so I think some wires crossed and here I am with a breath control/crying kink.
I also grew up seeking out violent stuff like most of the nonas here, so gyakuryona and guro are in my tastes.
No.10897
>>10884No, if anything I've gotten more boring, but I've had phases where I thought I had a fetish for something, mainly guro, only to realize my interest in it wasn't sexual I was just a morbid teen.
No.10899
>>10893Holy shit story of the blanks terrified me as a child, do you remember luna game and that one creepy ass apple bloom image? I fell out of mlp because I was betrayed and incredibly annoyed by the CMC's lackluster cutie marks after waiting many years since the show's debut for their long awaited marks. I didn't even know the show ended till I saw promotional photos of the new mlp gen.
>numerous crossovers with Amnesiathis one got me, holy fucking shit did we seriously have the exact same childhood? whoa. I remember watching vidrel obsessively, amnesia fluttershy entranced me, I drew a lot of fanart and ocs inspired by this AU despite not knowing or ever getting into the Amnesia games.
I was also obsessed with pokemon creepypastas as well! And I remember a story where the protag's sentient pokemon team got gored after he accidentally broke the game cartillege and after confronting and saying sorry to his team the deceased pokemon were freed and the gravestones in his game were marked with the names of his past pokemon team; I remember this story making me cry as I read it but when I read the comments people called it fake and gay, I was incredibly offended KEK. Do you also remember that one image of jiggly puff crying blood that was used as a background for lavender town in reverse? My brother would put it on the wii youtube screen then lock the door and I would shriek and go catatonic being in the same room as that thing while lavender town blasts in the background. fun times
(keep getting the 'couldn't make sense of the URL' error when I try to embed so I just converted the video into a webm)
No.10900
>>10884The only thing I would consider fetishistic would be lesbianic stuff since I was exposed to Playboy magazines and things like that when I was young. So it would have been my sexual awakening but because its not my personal taste nor does it feel good for my soul I just consider it a fetish or a compulsion.
No.10901
>>10894There were a bunch of episodes where characters would try shoving as much food and cream as possible in their mouth before fleeing and getting stuck in a cat flap or mouse hole.
There was also this episode where miracle grow plant feed made them twenty foot tall and rotund for some reason and that will always haunt me as the most embarrassing childhood interest.Now I remember there was a kids Disney magazine I used to get all the time and one issue had a story where a dalmatian called Rolly ate too many biscuits in secret and got stuck in a hole with his ass hanging out. He didn't want to be found but everyone ended up pushing on his butt. Stuck in wall doesn't even make sense for guys with big shoulders/pecs but I still go for it to this day.
No.10902
I don't know how to explain this well, but despite being pretty sure I'm technically into men, I'm either completely unaffected or straight up unsettled by them irl. I mean, normal interactions are fine, but anything that remotely resembles a romantic/flirty/sexy context creeps me out. Was at the pool this morning, and one of my male best friends was shirtless and for some reason it was making me so uncomfortable and disgusted I almost had to stand up and leave in the middle of a conversation.
Cute anime twinks are fun precisely because they aren't real. Real men… I don't know, nonnas. I swear I'm not a lesbian, but I can't help feeling like this. Does anyone relate?
No.10903
>>10884absolutely yes, oh my god. when i was VERY small, there was this episode of a cartoon i liked that had a “big kids don’t cry” theme, where the main character eventually broke down at the end after a whole episode of holding back, and i was FASCINATED. watched it all the time but hated having anyone else in the room when i was watching. many many years down the line the pieces clicked together and i realized i had a crying kink, and that’d been the first sign of it.
i’ve got the other usual degen interests like ryona and noncon, but they didn’t crop up nearly as early as crying did. it’s kinda baffling to me tbh but as you said, i think sometimes we’re just pre-wired that way.
No.10904
I don't have super strong opinions on seme/uke positions with most of my ships (I'm very much of the "X/Y makes more sense given their characterization, but if Y/X is written in-character, then I'm not opposed to it" mindset). However, I am autistically militant on when my OTP would've begun a physical relationship if a doujin or fic is following the canon plot. Like, there is a specific moment in canon where it makes the most sense, and if you deviate from that moment, I assume you don't understand their characterization or the story at all. I read a doujin once where they fucked before that point, and it ruined the whole thing because there’s no way that could possibly happen. I’m not naming the ship because I occasionally post them on here, and I don’t want all of my posts to be tainted with the knowledge that they were probably posted by the chick who is judgmental about the specific timing of Character A giving Character B access to his asshole. It’s so fucking lame that I care this much, and the specific moment in canon arguably makes it worse kek.
No.10905
>>10904>so fucking lameIt's cute! While I don't have "specific moment" autism there are absolutely ship fics/pics that are way too early in the canon timeline for me, so I can at least empathize there.
No.10906
>>10902I absolutely relate. The few times a guy expressed interest in me IRL it made me deeply uncomfortable. Also as much as I like cute asian cosplayer guys I dunno if I'd be into it if I met one IRL who expressed attraction to me.
No.10907
>>10904>It’s so fucking lameNo, it's based.
No.10909
>>10902Do you think its because you can sense that he likes you to some degree but you don't reciprocate? I feel disgust when men I find repulsive like me romantically and sexually, especially when I am just trying to have a normal social interaction or friendship with them.
No.10910
>>10904That's kinda funny tbh but I get it though. Timeline is important but I always welcome more sex scenes so I just suspend my disbelief ^^
No.10913
Warning: autism. I'm into a long game series and I've put hundreds of hours in and there's a character i realllly like. I ship him with another character and he's one half of my OTP for the series. I was on AO3 yesterday because I couldn't help myself and tagged out / avoided spoilers for the games I haven't played yet. But someone tagged their fic "no beta we die like [character]".
Now there's a moment where
the character kinda dies in the game he's introduced, but I'm now extremely upset at the possibility of him dying for real in the future. He can't. He has to be with the other half of my OTP in some way in my head. I actually had a pit of depression in my stomach when I read that. The only thing that is saving me from despair is that the wiki page (I carefully avoided spoilers) which described his appearance used present tense, no past tense. I just now feel incredibly autistic and on edge. They can't het out or kill off characters in series that bait for fujos.
>>10904>It’s so fucking lameI get it tho, there's so many doujins where A fucks B before the game which ruins the angst and characterization
No.10914
>>10904If you want to feel less lame, I'm a fixed autist AND a timing autist and I'm mostly fixed because theres a point in the story where the uke is traumatised and jaded which is why the seme is initiated to take advantage of him. Any content prior to that doesn't have the same unhealthy dynamic as the latter
No.10915
>>10909I'm almost 100% sure he is not interested in me at all. I'm not interested in him either. I don't know. I am attracted to men in theory but then I see some guy's naked chest and I'm like ew.
No.10916
>>10915He's not in good shape or attractive isnt it? A lot of men just dont take care of themselves nowadays. I feel more masculine than half the men I meet lmao
No.10917
>>10913This reminds me of the time I got spoiled by Ao3 about a character death but didn't get spoiled that the last quarter of the story involves time travel and he's alive at the end. Phew!
>I just now feel incredibly autistic and on edge.Would it be worth it to you to rip the bandaid off and spoil yourself or are you close enough to the end to power through it? Maybe ask a friend to check for you?
No.10918
>>10913>"no beta we die like [character]"This is incredibly silly on my part, but is it possible the fic is referring to deaths in-game (like how in Dragon Quest, your party members can "die" when their HP is zero, but you take them to a church and they're fine)? Like, if he's an exceptionally squishy party member, it may be a joke like that? Alternatively, is it possible the character dies multiple times/in multiple iterations, but is otherwise okay? One of my major fandoms has a character who fucking dies all the time in multiple iterations/adaptations, and the fandom treats it like a joke because it's not really a spoiler per se.
To me, it just seems wild that someone would just tag a major spoiler like that as a joke, so I think there must be another explanation. I think you should have a friend check for you.
No.10919
>>10917>>10918Thank you two. I'm a couple games until the end, so I miiight power through. But now I am considering having a friend check. I also considered spoiling the character here and asking, but I'm also a little embarrassed because I've posted the pairing/character here before.
No.10921
how long is too long for a oneshot, and how do you decide when to break up a oneshot into multiple chapters? i’ve got a piece right now that’s spiraling into being way too long for its own good (already 8k words and about halfway done, so probably about 15k–16k when completed), but it also doesn’t have any points where it’d feel completely natural to split it up into chapters. should i just bite the bullet and split it into two or three parts? am i too worried about zoomer reader attention spans? please advise.
No.10923
>>10921>>10921I've released 30-40k oneshots because they wouldn't work as chapters, or more accurately, I wrote them to be oneshots in the first place. I've also read multiple 50-60k oneshots and never had a problem with it, and they were much beloved by others too. I feel like longer oneshots were far more common Back In The Day (up until the early 2010s), I rarely see them anymore though, once in a blue moon.
I'm an advocate of writing to please no one but yourself so I think you should do what feels right, but if you want to maximize engagement (though this will depend on the fandom), splitting it into chapters would be the wiser choice.
No.10924
I'm not into 3d but I'm going to rewatch the stupid Venom movie to read tentacle oneshots to hopefully help with my own writing
also I checked the wiki again and one of my favs has an "is" next to his name so I'm relieved he's probably safe
No.10925
>>10923>I feel like longer oneshots were far more common Back In The DayProbably a result of posting multichaptered works on livejournal being annoying. You’d have to either write the next chapter in the replies or use links for each chapter which would get really annoying after writing more than one multichaptered fic.
No.10927
>>10925That may be. I also theorize that the age of the fandom/age of the writer has a role to play as well. It's not like long oneshots existed only on LJ after all, so maybe it just is a culture shift driven by younger fic readers? I have occasionally seen comments making of fun of/being bewildered by long oneshots, as if it's a given that fics over a certain length HAVE to be broken up into chapters.
No.10940
TiL there's a site called Mycutiemanga that archives Shota doujins. I remember seeing talk about whether MRM actually got rid of shota or they just messed with the tag but it's still good to see preservation efforts.
No.10942
>>10923ty for weighing in, nonna. splitting it up for more engagement isn’t really something that i’m worried about (it’s for a small fandom that i’m too embarrassed to share, so it doesn’t have much competition lmao), so i’ll probably just finish writing it out and make my decision based on the final wordcount, as well as the extent to which i can edit the pacing.
No.10943
>>10921Aside from natural chapter placements, after certain lengths, ao3 tends to get a little laggier, at least on mobile, and navigating the page can be more of a pain, so even if the chapters don't function as actual story pacemakers, if it's really long it can still be convenient to have them for the functions. I know a lot of people also bookmark and add chapter numbers to mark their place in the story too. But for anything under 50k you really wouldn't need to think about functionality, and even then at the end of the day it's your fic. Also zoomies who won't read a 15k word fic won't be swayed by chapter numbers imo, they'll just read three completely separate 5k oneshots or something. You don't need to pander to the lowest common denominator, do what fulfills you creatively imo
No.10944
need help finding this ecchi manga I read years ago? It was about a crossdresing boy who in every chapter gets other boys to crossdress.
No.10946
>>10940thank you nonna TwT
No.10947
>>10884Do early teen years count? I am certain that walking in on my parents gave me a voyeur and caught-in-the-act kink. Any time I'm talking about sexual fantasies or prompts I have to make an effort not to overuse a boy being caught in a compromising or embarrassing situation. It's funny how this works, as I made a post in the confession thread that at the same time it's given me a revulsion to the sexual position itself.
>>10887Your grandpa was based.
>>10895It's horrible to think that there are events like this in life that can happen to you without warning. I hope all of your choking is now consensual.
>>10901>Stuck in wall doesn't even make sense for guys with big shoulders/pecs but I still go for it to this day.I'm not into weight gain but I can understand being aroused by men with large asses stuck in vulnerable positions.
No.10948
>>10884God yes. I use to be drawn to a lot of weird content as a kid that then evolved into fetishes of mine. I still regret what I did but there here to stay from the looks of it.
No.10952
How the fuck is this only the second or third zombie fic I’ve read I am so fucking turned on right now kill me
https://archiveofourown.org/works/69499501 No.10953
A beer, music and translated foreign slashfic. Why do people even bother dating when shit can get this good alone?
No.10954
>>10854I've been thinking about this post but couldn't remember which thread it was in. I wanted to ask
>that worldbuilding autismo factorWhat is this to you, nona, and can you think of a reason why Tourabu doesn't fit? Honestly I think I know what you mean and mostly agree, but that's why it's bothered me that I can't explain it. Is it that the historical events/characters are too rigid? But the franchise does bizarre shit like turning one into a possessed zombie puppet and making Okita momentarily a demon catboy.
I've made my own stories set in the universe, with saniwa OCs to ship about and my own elaborate takes on how Time Gov operate and its bureaucracy, but I've never felt that I could invent a swordboy OC. That part feels beyond me. Which is really markedly different from stuff like KemoFure and MLP where it was very easy to throw whatever the fuck fun colors you wanted together and not worry, those were incredibly freeing and inspired many people to participate.
Ignoring that element, I think Tourabu was never facilitated to take off in the west, so the types of people who'd make endless fanworks and prompt others to want in on things didn't appear. Once people learned of it, the character roster was already big enough to put off newcomers who already don't know Japanese history. Japan-side you have huge numbers of doujinshi and elaborate world building guides for people's individual honmaru, as well as multibook AUs and all sorts. But if you never got into swordboys you'd have no idea these existed.